Have you ever felt just completely lost in life? I’m not going to get all philosophical on you, I’m just saying, it’s tough to write something all the time, which I realize, I don’t really have to do. I’m happy that people go on this blog and read the stuff I’m into and passionate about and when my pals feel like writing, they do the same. But I’m forgetting my purpose here. To talk about the things, I as a geek care about and hope you all care about too. The purpose of any freaking blog is to write down what you feel, what you think, and the cool stuff you want to share with other people. I used to write about articles I found cool or things about relationships or movies that I watched, and you know what? I want to talk about ME….ish.
I had no idea I’d be here, where I really have no idea what to do or what to write about. I miss stuff, I miss doing things, I miss people. I know I can change those things, but it’s tough all around. I think I’m just in a rut. I actually have a friend of mine who is quite in a rut, and has been for awhile now. I don’t know why, she nor her girlfriend are really giving any specifics, but I think I get it. Sometimes you just feel dawnsy. You know, for when you’re not really sick but you just feel lousy. And no, I’m not having a baby. (Points to people who got the I Love Lucy reference) But, right now, I feel like I’m missing something from my life. I don’t know what it is, but have you ever had that gut feeling like something is supposed to happen, or is happening in your life right now, you just can’t pinpoint what it is? That’s me, in a state of confusion, and general “meh”.
Honestly, I don’t think I’m being “lazy” on purpose. I want to give something that people want to read, and I like to write about. I want to share stuff that I find cool and think people would actually get a real kick out of. I want to get things done, but sometimes, I lack motivation. Hell, I’m barely motivated to get up in the morning’s sometimes. Sometimes. Which is why I feel like I’m missing something. That motivation to move forward, to get things done, to make things happen, and actually do something worthwhile.
I’m hoping that in the next couple days, I’ll snap out of this funk, start writing my story again, sharing cool, nerdy things, and just getting over how life kind of sucks. Yeah, you heard me, life sucks. I don’t just mean in general, but I also mean, in general. Here I am, sitting in a Starbucks, writing this bit right here and watching people in line. I could be changing the world in some way, instead of complaining. But isn’t that what makes life fun, complaining?
I don’t care where you are in life, whether you’re a teen or an adult, life can “suck”. It’s not a permanent thing, and I’m not getting all depressed, but sometimes it’s just a plain and simple fact. And yeah you can change it, and blah blah blah, but you know, sometimes life is just shitty. Sometimes you can just look at life and analyze is and say, wow, things are really bad right now. (And I know it’s all relative, don’t go judging what’s hard for one person isn’t hard for another) Then, after a little reflecting, get back on your feet, make things better and carry on. Good times right? I also hate couples, with their smug hugging and hand holdling. Okay…maybe I have a problem at the moment.
So, that’s where I am right now. Just unimaginitive, a little blah, and needing some inspiration. Life has a lot of muses and motivations, and I hope to hell that I find mine. Also, I have to stop looking so angry all the time. Okay, that’s all.
